Isn't it weird

You are still a coward and you still deflect personal responsibility for your actions on everyone and everything else. Your boyfriend can also go fuck himself. He as well as you have no idea who we are as people or a friends. If you honestly can make yourself believe that we shouldn't be friends because you are like an addict and we are the reason you fell back into YOUR old ways, then you have bigger problems.

Enough with that bullshit though.

One of my best friends has Cancer. Colon cancer and I cried at work about then I cried on him after work. About brooke, about cancer, about everything and I hate it. Pms is a bitch.

Mike, I, Nevets, and Mike Thomas all went out with Josh to get pizza and talked about it. Laughing really is the best medicine. Nothing like a good dose of a life or death situation to really ground you and to show you whats important. I love Josh so much and I am so glad that we are still friends. I called my mother today and she's part of the american cancer society and told me that if Josh needs anything then to call her. Apparently she has friends in high places. It made me feel a little bit better but ::shrugs:: Its hard to feel better when you friend is sick with something very serious. I am glad he has Paulette even thought I still feel awkward about it. He said today all she does is make him smile and that made me smile.

August seems like it could be promising. Mikes birthday is on the third so I invited everyone to Fish Bones. Josh is gonna love it because its a New Orleans based. Mike was also talking about Benihana. I just said no on that. I wanna go to something different. Jonny at work said that he LOVES Fish Bones and if Mike likes seafood that is the place to go.

We are going to the pictured rocks in the UP in the third week of August. I am so excited. We are going to swim and Kayak and ride bikes. If Josh isn't indisposed we invited him to go. I guess if Paulette is with him then she can come too. She is coming up north this weekend. ::makes face::

Please God. Help Josh survive Cancer. It would mean more to me then...anything. <3